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Well one of the initial motivating factors in my weight loss has come and gone. My best friend is an old married lady now. She was a beautiful bride. Thunder showers during an outdoor reception. It was awesome actually, a really cool thing. We were under the tents, there were some seriously drenched people but all in all most people stayed dry. The weather improved, and the party was awesome. The week leading up to the wedding I kind of gave myself a free pass, amazingly though, I didn’t really abuse that. The only really bad day was the wedding where I may have consumed my weight in alcohol, at least that’s how it felt the next day. I was running alot leading up to the wedding and actually hurt my knee . Oh well, it happens. I got a membership to the gym today so that I could have an air conditioned place to work out (too bloody hot, even at 5 am ugh) also for the stationary bikes. I was worried I wouldn’t get as good a work out as running, who was I kidding, it was awesome. Super sweaty, maybe the change will convince my body to actually start losing some weight again. I’m hopeful.

The title says it all. I am surprisingly not that bummed out though. I am still running 20 k a week and eating between 1200 and 1700 calories a day. The thing is that I look better than I have ever looked I am in the best shape of my life. People don’t recognize me. I’m not sure but I am almost certain I am still losing inches. So far I have gone from a size 16 to 10. That in itself is pretty amazing. I wish I was still losing weight, but if that doesn’t happen right away I am pretty happy with the shape I am and the shape I’m in right now. If any of you have any advice on how to get through a plateau I am all ears. The key to my success so far has been not denying myself anything, I still eat sweets and salty snacks I just eat waaaaay less of them. I am convinced that if I went too hardcore and denied myself those things, that I would feel like cheating and I don’t feel like that now. I really don’t want to fall off the weight loss wagon, so I need to keep the all things in moderation principle as a part of whatever I do. By the way it has been 3 weeks since I have had any significant weight loss.

I was just looking at a pic of me from 2 summers ago when I wasn’t even at my heaviest. I put a pic of me currently beside it. I have known there was a change on the scale and with clothes fitting better and everything but I honestly thought it wasn’t that noticeable, until I looked at those two photos. Oh my word, I can’t get over the difference. I always told myself that ” I may be big but I carry it well”, which to a certain extent is true. I am five foot ten inches, so 200 lbs on my frame looks different than someone shorter, but no matter how you slice it it was still at least 25 lbs over weight. I am now around 172. The difference IS noticeable. I had someone at church the other day tell me I had lost a “ton” of weight. I was a bit taken aback, like I said earlier I truly thought that I was carrying it so well. Guess not. It’s kind of weird, I felt complimented and insulted all at the same time. I obviously love the idea of shedding a ton of weight but I felt terrible for the heavier me, since she didn’t know that she wasn’t hiding it as well as she thought. Bit of a ramble I know, but that’s what was on my mind today.

My husband and I didn’t have a normal courtship. We were married within two months of meeting, and I was in another province for one of those months. It was a whirlwind romance with a very unorganized wedding. I bought a pair of very nice black pants for the event. I was pregnant within four months of the wedding. Needless to say my nice black pants haven’t fit me since. I never got rid of them, c’mon they are my wedding pants. Well… I am wearing them again. I have been in them for a few weeks. At first they were really tight, now they fit nicely. First time I did them up I cried. Is it ok to wear your wedding pants to work? I never want to take them off, not until they are too big.

15 lbs to my goal.
I couldn’t be happier.