astri

I am like a pound and a half away from being in a “normal” BMI range. If you had asked me at Christmas when I weighed 200 pounds if I would have thought this were going to happen I would have laughed. The thought of losing weight has always felt so daunting. My sense was that I was defeated before I even started, so why bother. Three things happened to make this weight loss happen for me.
#1 My mom moved away. Don’t get me wrong, I love my mom a ton, but she seems to be competitive with me. If l lose a pound she’ll lose two, If I run a mile she’ll run two etc etc you get the idea. I also get into a bad rut eating wise when I am around my parents. They are both Chefs and every meal is an event with sauces and butter… Calories be damned…Mmmmm blue cheese. Another thing is I haven’t told them I’m trying to lose weight, I always feel like as soon as I verbalize a plan then people will be looking to see if I fail, and besides I m doing this for me.
#2 My best friend is getting married and she asked me to stand up in her wedding. My first reaction wasn’t joy at the thought of being there for my life long friend on the most important day of her life, It was actually horror of being on display next to our other slimmer friends. It kept weighing on me that I would have to put on a dress and be there for the world to see, so one day on a whim in the grocery tore I bought a can of trimplan, I started that for breakfast and lunch the next day, after a week I had lost 2 pounds in addition to the bit I had lost from starting work again. I felt great. My husband noticed a change, and then I felt even better. He never said anything, but I know it bugged him that I was getting so big. After awhile I stopped the trimplan and started counting calories, I also started running. The weight just keeps coming off. Every time I step on a scale I smile. I like going to try on clothes now, I am so excited to get to my goal weight. I know it will take while but I am more than half way there and that feels unbelievable. I realize now much more clearly how much damage I was doing to myself by being sedentary and overweight, I never fully realized how lousy I felt until I started to feel better. It’s like a fog has lifted and I can finally see. Anyways I am rambling.
#3 is all of you. I am so motivated by all of you here on buddyslim you have no idea. This website was the third thing that has facilitated my weight loss so far. thanks for all that you write and share. It keeps me focused on what I am working towards.
Astri

I am not losing any weight. I have been strict with myself, and running and jumping rope, but I haven’t lost any weight for 5 days. I feel a bit discouraged. I guess I can be thankful that I haven’t gained any. It is kind of a drag though. I can’t imagine what else I could do, maybe tomorrow it will all magically come off. I gotta run. gotta go to work. take care.

I turned 30 today. I feel great. I spent almost all of my 20’s pregnant or nursing and subsequently chasing toddlers. I am finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel and I love it. I am looking forward to my 30’s. I am in better shape than I was 10 years ago, I feel and I think I look younger too. There was a BBQ at my kids school tonight, so I didn’t have to cook which was nice, I had a burger on a white bun and a bit of dessert which wouldn’t have seemed crazy 6 weeks ago but tonight felt like an extravagance. That was the only cheat I allowed myself today, I still ran my 4 k and I also did 15 min of jump rope (intense!!!). I have to work a 10 hour shift tomorrow so I don’t think I’ll go running in the morning. Waiting tables in a busy restaurant without any breaks while we are short staffed is a workout, I can feel myself getting thinner doing that. I got sunday off, I’m going for a hike with the family in the morning and then we are going to go and see “up” the kids are so excited. Then we’ll have dinner out. Trying to figure out a restaurant to go to that would have stuff the kids would like that would be healthy for me too (and them!). Anyhow I have to go to bed. Hope you all are having a good day. Mine was awesome.

My clothes are getting loose . This is a first for me. I’m used to clothes getting tight. I honestly don’t know if I should buy clothes now or when I am at my goal weight. I started off as a size 14-16 now I can do a 12 possibly a 10. I hope to get to an 8. Should I just buy a belt and cinch or should I get some interim pants. I’m starting to feel like a droopy drawers at work. This is the greatest clothing dilemma I’ve ever had. I would like to know what you all have done or plan to do.

Every time I put my runners on I kind of think Ugh I really don’t want to do this. But after about 5 min out in the fresh air in the sunshine on the country roads of our small town I feel really glad I didn’t come up with some excuse to stay home. I can run for 30 min now. I’m not winning any races mind you. I don’t get near as winded as I used to and I’m not exhausted when I get home, actually the opposite, I feel ready to do anything. I mentioned before that my husband is in great shape, he could go from not running for months to going for a 10 k fast run and have energy to spare when he comes home. I know he would have to slow down but I’m starting to feel like I could maybe go out for a run with him one of these days.
I started this weight loss with just that in mind but there are so many other benefits. I sleep better, I don’t seem to need as much sleep, I wake rested and ready to go and I have tons of energy through out the day. Having experienced feeling this good I can’t honestly see myself going back to being sedentary and lethargic again.
Astri

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