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I am getting soo tired of forever looking for work. I think it may be time to grow up go back to school and get a job that’s not so unpredictable as waitressing. At any rate, I am interviewing at the local ski hill. I hope to get on in the bar. The commute would be a pain in the ass but I would get free skiing and I think the tips would be ok. Wish me luck.
I realize this had nothing to do with weight loss.

I am so close I can almost taste it. My goal of a BMI of 22 is only 7.5 pounds away. Right now I weigh 161.5 and I want to get to 154. I really think that I can do this. Last year this time I never would have thought that this would happen. I am so strong and so healthy right now it feels strange. When I remember back to how it felt to be me at 200 pounds I can’t believe I ever found the motivation to do anything about it. I was always tired and lethargic. I have energy to spare now. I know I am tooting my own horn a bit here, but I am sometimes shocked by the changes in me. My husband gets freaked out alot lol. At one point he told me he wanted his lumpy wife back, he was having a hard time getting used to the one with the harder body. So weird, but our sex life actually suffered for a while, because he could not get used to me looking so different and having a higher level of confidence. I think things are getting back on track.
those of you who are married or with a significant other. How have they reacted to changes in you?

Halloween is so much fun. I love it. But those tiny little chocolate bars are waaaaay too tempting. Snickers, Oh Henry and Mars, oh my. The tiny little snickers bar (my personal favorite) has 50 calories. ITS BARELY EVEN A BITE!! No wonder I got fat. I wouldn’t think twice about eating two full size bars just because it was rainy and I had my period and I knew it would make me feel better. As it is I can hear the box of treats calling me from the pantry. My husband is out for the night and it just happens to be raining and I just happen to have my period. Oh my word, tonight will be a major test of will power. I haven’t had dinner yet. I’ve alloted 400 calories for dinner, maybe I’ll just have 8 teensy chocolate bars instead. just kidding…I hope.

I took the last week off from the gym and consciously ate way more than normal, to see if when I started back at the gym today and ate a super clean diet if I could shock my body into losing these most seriously stubborn last ten pounds. I went to the gym this morning and did the circuit class with all the retired ladies in town. I don’t know why no young people come to the class, it’s a good work out. One of the ladies actually commended me for being brave and working out with the old ladies lol. After the circuit class I did 5 k on the treadmill and then 45 minutes of weights. all said I was at the gym for 2 hrs and 15 mins. It felt super good to be back, I’m in a way better mood than I have been for the last few days. Gotta love endorphins. I’ve planned all my food for the day totaling 1285 calories. If I don’t see a loss by the end of this week I think I’ll just have to accept that this is where I am supposed to be for whatever reason. I can’t really complain, I have never been a size 8 in my adult life, I just really wanted to hit the goal of a BMI of 22 which is what I stated from the beginning. Wish me luck!!!

I have another new job at a resort down the road from me. I work in Banquets, which is tons of fun, I love the team work, you don’t normally get the feeling of teamwork in regular serving, it’s always a bit competitive. The only crappy part about it is the late nights. Last night I worked an 8.5 hour shift starting at 6 pm. I am soooo not used to that. I go through it though. I ate dinner before I left and then at work on my first break I ate dinner again!! I was totally hungry and I kept it healthy, salmon and veggies, I figured it’s a long day (awake for 21 hours) you need the extra calories to keep you going. I would also be super curious to know how much you burn doing a job like that. The hotel is huge and you wind up walking and doing moderate to heavy lifting all night long. I want to wear a pedometer to be sure, but I bet you walk 10 k in a shift easily. anyways, after eating two dinners last night I figured I would have gained but I actually lost 1 pound so that’s super cool. today is my 4th day without the gym. I’ll be back on monday, can’t wait.
I posted some new before and after pics for you all to get a look at.
I’ve got to run and get supplies for halloween, My son wants to be a head in a freezer. I still have to figure out how to do that one. Wish me luck.

I go to the gym 3-5 days a week, normally 5. I have also hit a plateau in a big way. Do any of you know if I took a break from the working out for a while if I would start to see results again after I went back?? If so, how long of a break should I take? Please know that I am not looking for an excuse to stop working out. I have to stop myself from going everyday as it is.

So today is our turkey day. I’m cooking up a storm. Turkey, stuffing, scalloped potatoes, pumpkin pie and cheesecake. Wish me luck. My house smells soooooo good right now . I may just eat nothing but celery until dinner though hahaha. It’s a really good day. I got the day off, I found out my best friend is pregnant with her first baby, my husband is making a new walkway to our house and it looks amazing and my daughter cut her own hair which may not seem like something to be thankful for, but the hysterical laughing that it caused when my husband and I talked about it after she went to bed made up for it, besides I got her into the hairdresser today and now she has a little pixie cut. Life is pretty awesome. This is my first thin thanksgiving, which I am thankful for. I am freaked out though every time I see my reflection, it’s not the me that I have known my whole adult life, not that I don’t love it, but it is really freaky to see a slim person looking back at me. Only 5 more pounds to my goal. Thanksgiving should set me back a bit though
Have a great day everyone!!

Four months ago I was a size 16 and I was sooo uncomfortable in my own skin. I am now a size 8 and I feel really good about myself. I have to keep reminding myself that when I walk into a room people aren’t staring at me. I doubt they were before but I am sure they aren’t now. I have noticed one odd side effect of losing weight though, some of my old acquaintances don’t talk to me anymore. My friends are happy for me, but some of the moms who used to talk to me around town don’t even look at me anymore. Buddyslim is the only place where I am even remotely flashy or boastful about my weight loss, in fact in day to day life I feel embarrassed when people compliment me. The women who ignore me now are overweight, I think they probably feel awkward around me, but I wish it weren’t the case. Alienation from my overweight friends was a totally unexpected side effect of losing weight. One of the women who no longer talks to me, her husband came up to me and my husband at a school function a while ago and was telling us how good we were looking which was nice of him, but when he jumped right into how he was trying to get his wife to exercise more I just wanted to shrivel up. I thought no wonder she doesn’t talk to me anymore, I wouldn’t want to hang out with me either. Men can seriously be so thick sometimes. When my husband finally gave up all hope of me ever getting in shape is when I wanted to. In my own time and for me.
Oh well that is my rant for the day!

That has to be the least inspiring thing ever. All I can say is that it had better be all water weight. I know it’s such a cliche to moan about all the crap that happens to women; the menstrual cycle, the pain associated with pregnancy and childbirth, stretch marks and then menopause, but seriously aren’t those things enough? Why can’t I just get my period and not gain weight and break out like a 14 year old. I feel a little less than awesome right now. I just want to lose this last little bit, but I feel like I take 1 step forward and then 2 steps back. I do really think I am just bloated though. On a slightly different note, since losing all the weight, my period is so not as bad as it used to be, lighter with less cramps. So not all bad. I don’t know if that is the weight loss or just being in better shape or it may not be related at all, but I am happy about that either way. I’ve gotta go now and drag my sorry butt to the gym, maybe I’ll be done with this pity party afterwards.

I hit a major plateau a while ago. I was a little bummed but I kept doing what I was doing. I was doing more strength training so I knew I may have been gaining muscle, but it was still kind of a drag to sit at the same weight for three weeks. For whatever reason that’s how it’s been going for me lately, lose 2-3 pounds and then plateau for 2-3 weeks. Then I modify something in my diet or work out and then lose a bit more. It was definitely more fun in the beginning when the question wasn’t if I had lost weight that week but how much I had lost.
On a different note, I was sprinting on the treadmill yesterday, I had it up to 10, when I do that I run for 20 secs and then hop off for 10, anyhow one time when I went to get back on I almost flew off the back of the thing. It was too funny. It wouldn’t have been funny at all had it actually happened. Seriously how embarrassing would that be? I think I might have just gathered my things and just quietly made my exit.
That’s my random little blurb for today I guess. I hope you all are having an awesome day!!!